Wednesday, April 6, 2011

What I Needed Most...

September 24, 2010


A college friend suddenly called me on my phone. I was surprised  to receive a call from her since for the past two years we have not talked in person or on the phone.

We talked about career and love. Well, most of the conversation was actually about her and not much about me. For that moment, I was again in the position of a listening friend - a support. But, surprisingly, I did not fee what I felt the other night. The conversation I had with her was, I realized, comforting.

All day I felt sad and unimportant, my morale was at its deepest but the one-hour call from a friend changed my mood. Interestingly, she does not know what she did to me. She does not know how thankful I am she called me. 

That call may be very ordinary to her but to me, it was at that moment, what I needed most.




Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Last in the Line

September 22, 2010



Why is it when everybody is busy, I suddenly feel sad?

People can be extremely happy or extremely sad and in that occasion I just instantly feel pitiful of myself. I hate it when I am angry and don’t know where to rant, yes. I hate it when I cannot control my feelings.

In my normal days, I am fully aware of the things I am doing and how I feel. Normally, I quite understand others’ feelings when they are mad or hurt or when they are in blithe. A support is always what I am.

Well, it is a good role in this world, the one who is behind the people who are in sorrow and not the one who always cries. But, I realized it is more saddening when suddenly you just feel the pain of needing a support as well – and you don’t know anymore where to look if you feel you’re last in the line of supports.

It is so difficult to be so understanding.



Sunday, March 20, 2011

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Yamikin Ushijima-kun Banner for Fighting! Fansubs

I made this last Jan 29, 2011 for Fighting! Fansubs .. two versions.

450x125 banner




changed the border in the present and the color.. from purple to red... 






June 4, 2011
Deleted 'Serenity'






Wednesday, March 9, 2011

총 맞은 것처럼

백지영


총맞은 것처럼 정신이 너무 없어
웃음만 나와서 그냥 웃었어 그냥 웃었어 그냥

허탈하게 웃으며 하나만 묻자 했어
우리 왜 헤어져 어떻게 헤어져 어떻게 헤어져
어떻게

구멍난 가슴에 우리 추억이 흘러 넘쳐
잡아보려 해도 가슴을 막아도 손가락 사이로 빠져나가

심장이 멈춰도 이렇게 아플 것 같진 않아
어떻게 좀 해줘 날 좀 치료해줘 이러다 내 가슴 다 망가져
구멍난 가슴이

어느새 눈물이 나도 모르게 흘러
이러기 싫은데 정말 싫은데 정말 싫은데 정말

일어서는 널 따라 무작정 쫓아 갔어
도망치듯 걷는 너의 뒤에서 너의 뒤에서
소리쳤어
구멍난 가슴에 우리 추억이 흘러 넘쳐
잡아보려 해도 가슴을 막아도 손가락 사이로 빠져나가
심장이 멈춰도 이렇게 아플 것 같진 않아
어떻게 좀 해줘 날 좀 치료해줘 이러다 내 가슴 다 망가져
총맞은 것처럼 정말 가슴이 너무 아파
이렇게 아픈데 이렇게 아픈데 살 수가 있다는 게 이상해

어떻게 너를 잊어 내가 그런 건 나는 몰라 몰라
가슴이 뻥뚫려 채울 수 없어서 죽을 만큼 아프기만 해
총맞은 것처럼

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Zorro MV - La Vida Sin Amor (Philippines)


Music: La Vida Sin Amor - Il Divo
Zorro MV (Philippines)
Richard Gutierrez & Rhian Ramos
edited by: samecut123